10/19/17

Season of Change

Have you ever started a project, got discouraged, started again and then stopped. Well that's me when it comes to blogging.  I start and I'm consistent and then I stop. Well it's a new season. Blogging is my platform to share thoughts and  faith.

I love fall not only for the Pumpkin everything and colors, but because it's the season of change. This year it's so much more in depth than ever. I'm in a season of change, I will be the first to say it's not all easy peasy lemon squeezy. It is hard, it test your faith, it tests who you are as a person. We always create a Autumn or Spring or Winter bucketlist and I never fall through partly because I'm lazy but this year and this time of my life I decided to create a bucket-list of things to do while in my season of change. Things that will better me as a person kind of like resolutions but easier to approach at least for me. 



What season in life are you in?
xx,
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8/1/17

Carolina Point Recap

A few weeks ago I went to camp at Carolina Point which is a Young Life camp. As many of you may know I attend camps but I never went for summer. This week I met so many people who changed my life and helped me change my perspective of things and helped me grow closer to Jesus. If you have a Young Life organization in your area I highly recommend attending a camp. Here is my personal experience at camp.

If you follow me on Instagram I shared a snippet of my experience. I arrived at camp not knowing what to expect. I had no idea that I had to do things I never had the guts to do. Such as Zipline through the mountains. We were on no set schedule and when the bell rung you just went. The person who lead our sermons and talks was Coco who is actually a leader in my area. She said how Young Life likes to push us to the edge a little. Increase a little faith in you. Those words helped me through a lot of activities.

First day we arrived not long after lunch and we had countless free time on our hands until dinner. I spent that time walking around with friends and exploring the campsite (which is absolutely breathtaking).



Now I can't remember what happened everyday and how the schedule went so I'll just give what I know. Starting with the activities. The first night we were sent through an obstacle course through the woods and it definitely went against everything I'm down for. I hate mud and being in the actual woods with a passion and the fact that it was dark was worst, oh and I had to run through a lake. But it ended up being the highlight of my week honestly. Mostly because I always turn my nose up at getting all nasty and muddy and dirty. But the course made our cabin (EAGLE NEST) bond and trust each other and ended up giving great friendships. 

I faced a lot of fears this weekend like paddle boarding and zip lining. I have a dying fear of heights. I refuse to get on a plane and at the fair or amusement park it takes my friends 20+ minutes to convince me to ride a ride, so when they hooked me onto the harness and I was clam I questioned whether I was sick or not. Then when they said go and I calmly jumped off the ledge, I again questioned my well-being. The scenery was beautiful though. It was like all my fear was removed and it was the best feeling in the world. 

Paddle boarding wasn't so good the first round. I couldn't relax my muscles or stop shaking. You see I had a super scary pool experience around 7 and my family isn't too friendly in the water... therefore I trust NO ONE in the water and panic if I go under. So when I made it safely to land I never felt so relieved. Afterwards I kept saying I can't believe I just did that, but I still don't trust anyone on water. So I overcame my fear of heights but water yeah not so much. 

Here are my favorite  highlights of the trip. 


This was the second time around. I pretty much trust Lauren with my life after this.








Hoedown was literally the funniest thing ever and I know I say that about everything but seriously. Everyone in western clothes that's fun by itself just saying.














My favorite thing that happened on this trip was renewing my relationship with Jesus and doing it right. As I stated and as you've probably read before, it seemed I had a pretty great relationship with Jesus. Our speaker for the week Coco talked about things below the surface and how they affect our relationship with God or how we try to fill this God shaped void with other things. On the outside I was a somewhat good christian but below the surface I was struggling. After having a conversation with one of the summer staff and my leader, I realized things I never thought actually affected my relationship with God. Things I would be like oh this is normal and stuff but it was really blocking me from experiencing a full relationship with Jesus. So on July 21 over Cheerwine Floats, I gave those things up, confessed my sins,  and put my stake in the ground so I could experience a fulfilling relationship with Jesus. Freedom and joy. By far the greatest feeling ever. 

Carolina Point definitely has a special place in my heart. So many great memories made. My perspective of life in general changed. New friendships, stronger friendships. Cheerwine slushies ( the absolute best thing on the planet don't argue with me). No social media, no drama. Just Jesus, mountains and friends... and ruthless bugs, but again I recommend Young Life to anyone. Literally one of the best experiences you'll have. 

*Til next time,

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7/7/17

the willpower to change


Disclaimer: This was written late at night while my thoughts were running rapid and I just started typing what was on my mind and heart. It is probably very unorganized and messy but it was what was given.

Change. It's scary when you're so used to things being one way. As scary as it is sometimes it's well needed. Sometimes we need a fresh start and change in lifestyle.

I would run and then come back to God, run and fall again, then return. The cycle was endless and tiring. I wanted that to change. I wanted a closer relationship with Him but I realized I first had to change some things including my lifestyle.

If we claim that we experience a shared life with him and continue to stumble around in the dark, we're obviously lying through our teeth— we're not living what we claim. But if we walk in the light, God himself being the light, we also experience a shared life with one another, as the sacrificed blood of Jesus, God's Son, purges all our sin. ( 1 John 1:6-7 MSG)

I knew where I was at was not where I needed to be, but I was comfortable. So I ignored God and stayed in this strong sea of negativity. I was not equipped to swim in these crashing waves... so I drowned for the 1938828 time. I was struck again with depression and the ongoing fight of eating disorder. I was officially tired. Tired of drowning and running, tired of being double-minded. After studying I realized I was ready for my change.

I think of Mark 1: 15-20. When Jesus is strolling through town and as He is walking he tells John, James, Andrew and Simon to follow Him. They immediately followed Him, dropping everything and went after Him. They had no idea what to expect next or anything but they trust who He was. I didn't jump up and follow Jesus in this situation, I sat and tried to negotiate. Well maybe if... Or I could do this thing different but still do this... It doesn't work like that. Now I wish I had, but I'm glad I didn't at the same time because He opened my eyes to so many things and learned so many lessons that bettered me. I grew to learn to trust Him and trust he'd hold my wherever I may go.

Another thing, I knew how badly I wanted to get rid of my issues and grow closer to Him. I always refer back to 1 John 1:6-7.  You have to also really want your change. No matter how uncomfortable and scary it maybe, if He calls for it and you know it's for your better, take action. Change your circle, surroundings, and importantly your thinking. It all starts in the mind. Don't linger, take action.

The point my wandering thinking is trying to make is sometimes Jesus calls us out of our comfort zone. Just go. Take the risk and trust Him. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9) It's for your good. He is trying to make you a better, stronger, wiser person. Or He is trying to get to you. He wants to know you as much as you want to know Him, yet sometimes we are so blinded and distracted that He has to make a few changes in our life. We have to make a  change and turn from the wickedness to see Him in full glory.

I also encourage you to find a support system. That was one thing I lacked of in an aspect. You can't walk with God alone. It's not an easy walk, so I encourage you to find a group that fully supports you and encourages you in your faith. "One who is righteous is a guide to his neighbor, but the way of the wicked leads them astray. (Proverbs 12:26).

Remember he does all things for a reason. 

– Enfiniti J.

7/2/17

10 Habits to Master


Summer is here but that doesn't mean we stop being productive and lose routines. To feel less cluttered and overwhelmed I found some habits that help me. These habits not only make you feel better as a person but help in school, work, and other activities. 
Journal: Journaling helps release your thoughts and track your dreams and anything else. My bullet journal is my go-to everyday and I highly recommend. (Marble Notebook... I love it)

+ Have a morning & night routine: Having a set routine for the morning and night helps so much. It reminds you to do things daily such as take vitamins, check emails, etc. It also helps you prepare for the day and have a peaceful sleep.  You can digitally do these and turn into lock screen, print it, or simply write them down. Favorite morning and night products linked below.

+ Using/checking your planner: Planning things out, having to-do list help tackle the day and week. My planner is basically my best friend. It help keeps track of deadlines, events, work, trips, etc. I reccomend the Happy Planner

+ Drinking more water: super cliche and self explanatory but trust me its worth it.

+ Vision/dream board: Using magazines or pinterest pin and paste your dreams and aspirations then hang it on your wall. It helps with motivation and getting things done.

+ Daily meditation/quiet time: Doing this daily helps calm your mind and body and basically prepare you for anything. Taking a moment to catch your breath, catch up with the Lord, etc. 10/10 recommend.

+ Stretch: Do this in the morning and before bed. Being a dancer I try and stretch everyday. Focusing on different stretches to help with problem areas or stress. Back stretches before bed help a lot too.


+ Gratitude: Having a daily gratitude journal or jotting it down just really helps with having a positive outtake on your day as well as your life. 

+ Exercise: I'm not saying be a total gym rat or anything but a run here or there helps a lot. Plus no one wants to be a couch potato so a workout routine wouldn't hurt to throw in. 

+ Set goals: Both long term and short term. Use journals and planner to help keep track. 


Hope these habits help as much as they've helped me
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6/24/17

Summer Bucketlist + Life Update


I have completely ghosted since the start of the year. But I am determined to become consistent in my content again. So with that being said I have created a summer bucketlist that I plan on fulfilling along with the help of friends.




Surprisingly working out everyday has been going well for the past two weeks. I'll be sure to include my daily stretching + cardio/endurance combo soon, but I want to be overall fit in general and I always make this a goal but never take initiative. I've come up with a "morning routine" that helps me fit the bible readings in as well as working out so I'll be sure to share that soon.

Life update. Some of the biggest things that's happened between January and now is:

- I passed all my finals, so I am going to be a upperclassmen finally.
- In April I went to prom with friends and preformed in our school's dance department performances. 
- I gathered the courage and motivation to start back blogging :). 
Also if you have any good book or movie suggestions please please share them. 

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1/26/17

A Story Worth Telling: Savannah, Always S,. Blog

So apparently I had been following Savannah forever on Instagram (which is very inspiring itself) and somehow some way I found out she was a blogger. After reading through her blog, I thought I had to feature her on the blog. Today Savannah shares some insight on herself, and I know you will enjoy it.
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1/17/17

To the One Who Wants to Throw In the Towel

Hey... you there,

I know right now life seems hard. Life is giving you it’s butt to kiss and you just want to throw in the towel. You want to give up. 

But you can’t give up. 

I won’t let you. 

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